A month overdue post; Sorry about that ^^;

Hm, yeah. Last posted on the 27th of November.
Eeep. That is a bit late. Sorry folks.

No really - I'll try and be better.

But no promises ;D

ANYWAY;
I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas season! I did, spent a hell of a lot of money on other people, and now I'm broke. But it was worth it! From what I can gather, everyone liked their things, so woo!

Christmas break is going horrendously fast - I was already supposed to have started on my work to get back on top of things... but you know me - master procrastinator and all! My mother told me the other day that I might have to think about putting my writing on hold for a while whilst I catch up with my work; and it was painful to hear. It was painful to hear because I realised recently that writing's really what I want to do with myself (writing fantasy fiction, in fact) and that everything else seems kind of mute now.
Unfortunate, when you're in the middle of your A-Levels.

And I already know what my parents will say. 'You might change your mind later.' and, 'keep your options open.' both of which of course, are perfectly valid statements. However, the motivation that I had to make those things happen has suddenly dissipated; which leaves me in a state of unfortunate sadness.

On the plus side, I think I passed some of the tests I was given before I broke up for the end of term!
(Hopefully veering away from the solid stream of 'E's I attained last term...)

Note to self: Buy more paper. You ran out last term.

Why didn't I ask for some for Christmas? Oh right. Cause it's not normal to ask for paper for Christmas. Then again, it's not normal to ask for a 'we know' Skyrim shirt either, and yet...
I got one.

Aww yeah.

Speaking of things I got for Christmas, (and believe me, I got some cool ass things! (Think the bike I showed you a while back, amazon kindle and MORE) )  I got this awesome book titled 'you might be a zombie and other bad news'.
Now most sane people probably wouldn't see this as a good thing. But I'm not most people, and I'm certainly not sane. I'm one of those crazy people who believes highly in the chance of a zombie apocalypse, and this just helps along my theory.

So I'm going to explain to you exactly what this books tells us that just might encourage you to change your mind about my complete insanity.

And don't just shrug it off. This stuff is science.

1. Brain Parasites.
No jokes, there are actually parasites which reside inside of people's heads. To be precise, they're called Toxoplasma gondii.
"Well yeah blud, but what does 'dat bug gotta do with zombies?"
Good question, simple minded chav! Well, simply speaking, the 'bug' has an ability to control the thought processes of the brain that it inhabits.
In fact...
There is evidence to suggest that when this particular parasite infects the brain of a rat; it is aware that it can only be bred in the intestines of a cat. Knowing this, it politely encourages the rat to move towards the cat; technically offering itself up as a nice tasty snack.
Mmm, brain parasites.

That's not even the scary bit. Did you know that every one in two humans is infected with toxoplasmosis and doesn't realise? Heh heh heh, maybe you're one of them... maybe i'm one of them!

...braaaAAAIIIINNNNSSSSSSSS

2. Neurotoxins
Goes a bit without explaining, doesn't it?

There are tons of poisons out there in the world... why is it beyond us to believe that some of them could cause us to look dead? Well, whoever does believe that are wrong because there are a select few that do in fact communicate the look that we actually are dead.
Neat.
The bad part is that when brought back, humans enter a... trance like... state. No memory, can only perform simple tasks like eating, sleeping, moaning and shuffling around.

*cough* Zombies *cough*

Haiti shouldn't only be famous for the earthquakes you know. In Haiti, real life people were created into zombies.
CASE STUDY:  Clairivius Narcisse 1962 - Declared dead by two doctors, buried, and seen walking (stumbling) around the village eighteen years later.
Turns out that some creepy-ass priests used a 'zombie cucumber' (jimsonweed to you and me) to zombify people to get free workers on sugar plantations.

Heartless or what?

Nevertheless, as much as they can be turned into zombie like people, nothing has been proven to make them cannibalistic and brain loving. ...Not yet, anyway. Mix the parasite and this poison together... See what you get? Zombie.

There are plenty of other reasons too; I just can't be bothered to sit up here all evening explaining them to you, and scaring you till you can't sleep.

Speaking of which...

Amnesia.


Have you ever played it? It looks brilliant.. and as much as they say you must immerse yourself, it looks like a game about which you absolutely could NOT immerse yourself in. Not because the graphics are shit, or it would be really hard to; quite the opposite.

Because it could cause you mindmeldingly painful brain damage.

More so than zombies.

I'm considering getting it; but will have to laugh all the way through to hide my fear. Maybe I'd get my sister to play with me - then again, her gasping and jumping whilst I play video-games almost makes me more frightened than the actual experience itself.

Have a nice 'rest of break', and a wonderful new year! I'll see if I can drag myself back to write again soon! <333

Oh yeah, and for those of you who love me enough to want to watch it, here's a cool video I made while playing Nancy Drew on the computer! 2009 games for the win!

Back to basics, MRIs and MRAs

Doctor Who- sorry, Hu, was a big meanie.

She was really grumpy and it didn't exactly work my trust up in her... then she decided to test my reflexes and whack my joints with a weird medical hammer-y thing. I didn't actually think they did that in real life. But they do. Just in case you were wondering.

The good thing is that she told me that she really doubted anything was wrong with me at all! She doesn't think that I'm epileptic, or anything like that, so YAY! Yet, she told me that there's also a tiny risk that I have a BRAIN HEMORRHAGE so I've been booked for an MRI and an MRA scan of the brain. 

ACK.

So that's nothing to worry about or anything....

Oh yeah! And the en-suite in my parents bedroom has the only working shower- and now THAT sounds precarious. Like it's about to fall through - and if it does, it will probably take the wall between the lounge and the kitchen with it!
...Yet, my dad won't fix it.

Starting next week, I intend to spend nearly all of the 'free's' I'm given at school ACTUALLY studying. I've realised that I could be copying out the textbook into my own notes on this trusty little notebook in my free time - writing the essays I should be for English, as well as actually reading the Kite Runner - and learning the key terms for Business Studies. Because as much as the majority of Business Studies is simply common knowledge, I know that some terms I won't just know. Like 'Matrix', and not as in the movie. What the actual-
Which also means that you could be seeing some study notes as blog posts in the future! Huzzah if you're doing a-levels in the same things as me; not huzzah if you're not!

CHRISTMAS IS SO SOOOOON FOLKS! It's so so close and YAY
It's the 27th of November, meaning that it's actually 28 days away. Only 28 days until I reveal my new bike to my eyes! HUZZAH!

This is it. Isn't it BEAUTIFUL??? Screw that crappy thing about my school bag always whacking into the tire on the front of my bike and hello vintage beauty!

Mmm, it's even got it's own little stand!

Ah it's Sunday. The day of things to do, the things to do today.
To do:

• Make Breakfast - I recently mastered the art of making french toast so making breakfast for myself is not only easy, but freaking delicious too. 
• Write the Act 3 essay for English that was actually due on Friday. (And this is why I have to use my studies more productively)
• Write the Act 4 essay actually due NEXT Friday. (Hopefully that'll make up for it!)
• Write some of the Coursework essay I really should have been doing in English! (Gulp)
• Check for other homework due for tomorrow
• Iron a couple of shirts
• Shower, so that I don't have to do so tomorrow morning (I promise, I'm not a hermit! ...Yet...)

And that should (SHOULD) be all. If I have any free time after that, i'll probably be writing more fanfiction (Which I got back into! Huzzah!), planning Original fiction (If I publish a book, you'll buy it right?;D), or playing Skyrim, which still hasn't gotten old.

So what do you know, this turned into a relatively positive blog post after all!

My dad went away to America earlier - at like 7:55AM to be precise. I don't like him being gone or anything; but it's like this aura of badness and stress has been lifted from the house.

Lifted away~

Dragon Language

Dragonborn Dragonborn

By his honor is sworn

To keep evil forever at bay

And the fiercest foes rout

When they hear triumph’s shout

Dragonborn for your blessing we pray

And the scrolls have fortold

Of black wings in the cold

That when brothers wage war come unfurled

Alduin, bane of kings

Ancient shadow unbound

With a hunger to swallow the world

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Dovahkiin dovahkiin

Naal ok zin los vahriin

Wah dein vokul mahfaeraak ahst vaal

Ahrk fin norok paal graan

Fod nust hon zindro zaan

Dovahkiin fah hin kogaan mu draal

Ahrk fin kel lost prodah

Do ved viing ko fin krah

Tol fod zeymah kein meyz fundein

Alduin feyn do jun

Kruziik vokun staadnau

Voth aan bahlok wah diivon fin lein.

Sometimes, what we think we want and what we truly want are very different things.

Hi guys; I haven't updated in forever again.

/Reliable updater is reliable.

I have a feeling that i'm going to have to get better at it though. Otherwise I feel that my mental health is going to suffer severely from not being able to spew the crap in my head to someone or something. Usually I just unload it onto my mum, but I figure that that's not very fair, as she usually picks up other peoples stress easily.

The guy I liked... Things got complicated. We met up recently actually, more recently than you might think because I had to postpone the first time (for reasons that i'll let you know in a minute!) but when we met up I truly did have a good time. I truly do like him. We even kissed a bit. But that's beside the point.

The point is, I had to think about where it left me for quite a while; leaving him in limbo. It made me feel like a terrible person, and eventually I came to the conclusion that I actually didn't want a relationship at all like I think I did. I'm one of those people who is not only anxious, but also can't handle much change all at once, and at the moment I really do have to change a lot. For work, for family, for myself- just as a part of growing.

It's a lot of pressure; and generally I can handle it, but too many things and I know i'd stretch to my limit and probably hurt more people than I would save.

The reason the first time we were supposed to meet up got cancelled; let's begin with that and casually move the subject on.

SO, my opticians appointment.

Nothing is wrong with my eyesight! Nope. Nada. Zip. BUT something could be wrong with my brain.

You see, when she was shining the light into the back of my eye (and you can really creepily see all the vessels back there .__.) I fainted. Got a huge headache, blacked out and went unconscious for a minute or so. Now apparently that's NOT normal, although truthfully I don't think it's that big of a deal.

Apparently though, everyone else does.

I have a neurology appointment on Tuesday, with Doctor Hu. Not Doctor Who. I wish.

Boo.

I also feel kind of sick right now; my throat kills which makes me feel nauseous. Yay! -_-

I had to say no to someone who asked me out yesterday, too. 

Someone out there hates me, I think.

I mean, what would anyone even SEE in me?! There's nothing here! I'm really BORING.

Oh and I have three essays to write.

That's basically my life for the past 2/3 weeks! Oh, and i'm sure you know already, but SKYRIM'S OUT.

IT'S THE MOST AMAZING GAME EVER. I LOVE IT SO MUCH. I've killed... at least seven dragons, completed the dark brotherhood and the thieves guild or at least the main story) and met 3 Daedric princes. Life on that game... why can't that be life?! That would be awesome.

That's why I like that game. When my friend Adam (who's one of my best friends) was telling me about it, and telling me about how he likes to get lost in the game, I can't say I understood. I really can't. I thought it was insane; why would you want to immerse yourself so much that you forgot real life existed. So much so that you won't join an XBOX live party? It made no sense to me.

And then.... all of a sudden, it made perfect sense.

...Now I have to go for Chinese, and i'm going to post this before I forget that it exists! Thank you for reading, if of course you did. I'm keeping the faith that life will get better, and I truly hope that right now, so you should too! Oh yeah, and if someone could let me know how to respond to comments, that would be swell. Do I need to change the theme of my blog? I have no idea - but I don't want people to think i'm ignoring them because i'm NOT and I love the comments you leave!

RAMBLE<3

Milton Keynes, Skyrim and weird things.

I'M IN MILTON KEYNES AGAIN

I actually got back about a week ago; but hey, I never said I was good at keeping this blog up to date! I will eventually reply to comments and messages... when I figure out how...
Moving swiftly on!

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It's 10:35am, or at least, it feels that way! It's actually 9:35 - stupid clocks. Why'd they have to change? It's not like England's an immensely agricultural place now, is it?

Guy Fawkes day today, by the way! That day when everyone in England celebrated the failure and suicide of one man - nicknamed Guy Fawkes. That's probably my worst nightmare - being remembered for a failure, I mean - so I actually end up feeling a little bit sympathetic for him.

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Oh yeah, you know that guy I mentioned earlier? The one I 'liked'? Well, turns out he 'likes' me too, and we're going on a sort-of date tomorrow.
Probably.

Nothing's really set in stone & everything's majorly casual, but I can't help but be horrendously nervous. HORRENDOUSLY. Urgh. URGH. SO NERVOUS.

So I can't figure out if that's a piece of good news, or a piece of bad news!

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I have an opticians appointment today; the first one in five years. Should have really been wearing glasses for close range things... haven't been. I have a feeling that I'm going to be tutted at. Ah well, shouldn't have gone to specsavers.

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Now that all of that's out of the way...

SKYRIM IN SIX DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My fellow Elder Scrolls fans; Dragonborn's everywhere - listen closely. Skyrim is going to be the best thing ever, and Friday the 11th the best day of your life - so stock up on crisps, your favourite drinks and snacks, because you're probably not going to be leaving the chair you park your arse in for at least a week.

At LEAST.

I actually did a biology mitosis video yesterday so that I wouldn't have to do it instead of playing Skyrim. (Yes, really! You can find it here! - It opens in a new window, so click it!)

Eeeeeeee!

The black hand / dark brotherhood looks amazing, as you would expect after the amazingness that it was in Oblivion; the thieves guild looks awesome - they have their own 'lair' and armour this time, for the winning! Their questline is bound to be immense too, but YAY!

You know, i'm just going to give you all the links & information I can about Skyrim.
This could take a while...

Behind the wall - Trailer

Concept - Trailer

Live Action - Trailer

Perks and unlockables - There is no class system, so ignore that as you're reading it; then read the comment posted by Julianos at the bottom!

Some Skyrim gameplay

ENJOY

Super belated post is super belated.

Morning all. Or, evening, rather.

I'm in a not good mood. Simply because my mum's taking over the front room a bit; and it's driving me slightly insane. So I explain that I don't want her to record that much on the planner in the front room, because I like it tidy, and she's now mad with me.
Not cool.
Not cool at all.

Cornwall tomorrow. Ah, the joy.
I dislike it. A lot- I don't want to go. Not only do I miss four parties, (Yes, four!) but I also miss bowling, free stuff and seeing the lion king in 3D.
At least i'm back for Halloween.

I have a lot of work to do over the holidays, so i'm not looking forward to that either.

Oh yeah, and I've found out that another one of my friends likes me as more than a friend.
Party on.

Splash; there's all the bad stuff!

I must remember to pack Risk before I go away! And some playing cards. In fact, i'm going to make a list of all the things I have to remember..:

Things to do before I depart towards my almost imminent misery:

1. Clothes. This includes some jeans, shirts and sweatshirts; because it's the English coast. Not Orlando.
2. Risk. Playing cards.
3. Work stuff! I don't want U's!
4. Charge phone, DS, camera, iPod & computer. I love technology, and i'm not going a week without it!
5. Wash bag. Hygiene is important!

So I've also just checked the weather. Rain. Lots of it. Taking a couple of coats and a mini umbrella now.

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Positive section of this blog post begins HERE.

I renewed my XBOX live!

...and I just realised how screwed up my priorities are. OHWELLXBOXISGREAT!

Everyday i'm talking more and more to the guy I like. Yesterday we swapped phone numbers - now he's texting me. SCORE!

It is half term! Even though I have to spend a lot of it working, and all of it in Cornwall, it's still a holiday! Sort of...

Speaking of Cornwall, the router's just been packed up. Ah. That means this post probably will end up being posted in the land of corn. Ironic isn't it? I hate Corn too.

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As I thought, here we are in Cornwall, and I haven't posted this yet.

Things are looking cool! The sea's pretty choppy at the moment, but that's cool- I've just had a scone and i'm connected to the internet. As far as things go, that's good! 

I'm bored, but at least I have the computer. And a shower. None of this camping nonsense.

Going to buy a few things tomorrow for people back home - probably scarves, bracelets and rock. Rock as in the candy. I don't really like it, but the sell some with rude messages in that makes me laugh a ton.

Right, i'm going to actually post this now! Maybe i'll keep a log of my cornish adventures... Then again, maybe not!

Procrastinparty

It's just occurred to me that I seem to have picked up a habit of procrastinating things, by doing other things that I've procrastinated by doing other things.

I should be writing the English work, so I do the Chemistry.

I should be doing the Chemistry work, so I write the blog.

I should be writing the blog, so I look at the book of the face.

And that's too damn easy to procrastinate.

So you see, I've figured out that the true problem is simply that i'm lazier than words can describe.

Which isn't a great thing to figure out when you've just started your a-levels.

On the plus side, I have a free period first thing tomorrow morning, so I can crack down and do some work then! However, I also have a free period session four, which means that I COULD go home, if it wasn't for stinky tutor group being in the afternoon.

:insertprofanityhere:

Why does tutor group exist? It seems, that in upper 6th, it just exists to make you feel bad about not doing eight hours of study per day. It seems like, seriously, that is what it is. Nothing important happens, so everyone just sits there for 45 minutes, asking Mr Hutchings to let us go home.

Though we know he wont let us.

OH YEAH.

My Chemistry teacher, Mr Smith, did something COMPLETELY OUTRAGEOUS the other day. Seriously, I think they should make it illegal or something.

He wrote the wrong kind of 'their, there, they're' ON THE BOARD.

I can see you're screaming.

Like Chemistry isn't hard enough already with these atomic orbitals and stuff. I mean, I kind of get them? But if the orbitals are in subshells, and the (for example) P orbital is in a dumbbell shape with the nucleus in the centre, how are the electrons from further out shells also going to take the form of a P orbital without intercepting with the already there shell?

(I explained that totally crappily, and you probably don't understand a word of it, BUT I DON'T UNDERSTAND ;A;)

It feels bad to be behind already.

Feels bad man.

LIKEWISE; My Xbox live expired the other day.

Cry

More

Plz.

And I'm broke.

It's a party of bad vibitude!

On the plus side, I've done my ironing and washing today! Which means FREE TIME for me!

Sadly, it's already ten to six.

/Le sigh

My sister just came back from Paris! Had the nerve not to buy me any souvenirs:-( But I guess I never expected otherwise! Truth be told, I'm glad she had a good time! It sucked to be at home though, with my dad stressing me to 'feed the cats' and scowling at me for making lighthearted comments to my brother across the dinner table.

I mean seriously, I can't remember what it was, but that comment was VERY lighthearted, compared to how some of his friends say that they are going to 'batter me up' because of how I kick my brother off the Xbox sometimes.

'Batter me up'.

I'd like to see them try.

Beat my brother in an arm wrestle yesterday. Yes, he may be about a centimeter taller than me now, but i'm still godly in the muscle department.

LIKE A BOSS.

Anyway, i'm really getting annoyed with the controllingness of my dad at the moment. Not that it's legal for me to bet, get a full time job, get married, join the army or 'have le sexy times' in England or anything. 

Nope.

Not at all.

Sorry for the pessimistic ranty post, I'll try and make the next one more positive and cheery!

Have a nice afternoon / day / morning / evening!:-D